Carrick reveals he suffered from depression after 2009 Champions League final

Describingtheopeninggoal,whenhislooseheaderwaspouncedonbyAndresIniesta,hesaid:Ibeatmyselfupoverthatgoal。

Ikeptaskingmyself:whydidIdothat?

andthenit[thedepression]snowballedfromthere。

Itwasatoughyearafterthat。

Itlingeredforalongtime。

Itwasnotuntilafterthe2011ChampionsLeaguequarter-finalwinoverChelseathatCarrickbegantorecover,withevenhis2010WorldCupcall-upblightedbytheproblem。

Asafootballer,youareexpectedtobethatmachinethatjustchurnsoutresultsafterresults,performanceafterperformance,saidthe37-year-old,awinnerof12majortrophieswithUnitedbeforeretiringtobecomeacoachthisyear。

Youarepaidwellandyouplayforabigclub,sowhycanthebegoodeveryweek?

Itsjustnotlikethat。

Itsnoteasytodothatanditseasytoforgetthat。

Therecouldbeallsortsgoingonthatyoudont?

knowabout。

In2010,thatwastheworsttime。

ItwasmydreamtobeataWorldCupbutthetruthisthatIdidntwanttobethere。

Iwantedtobeathome。

Iwastelling[wife]Lisa:Ivehadenough。

Iwanttocomehome。

Iwouldnt?

havedone,butthatshowIfelt。

Carricksaysnobodybuthisparents,hiswifeandhisbrotherGraemeknewtheextentofhisdifficulties。

Ikeptittomyselfmostofthetime。

Evenmyfamilydidntknowthefullextentofit,headded。

Itsnotsomethingthatsreallyspokenaboutinfootball。

Ihavenotspokenaboutitbefore。

FortheladsthatIhaveplayedwiththatarereadingthis,thiswillbethefirsttimethattheyknow[aboutthedepression]。

Theymightsayhewasntplayingwell,orhewasnthimself,buttheywouldnt?

knowtheextenttowhichtheproblemwas。